zseah

2008-08-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

YOU MADE HER PROMISES YOU COULDN'T KEEP
GRANTED SHE WAS AN IDIOT FOR BELIEVING YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE
BUT NOT EVERYBODY BELIEVES THAT THE WORLD IS A HORIBLE PLACE
SHE BELIEVED YOU WHEN YOU USED THAT "F" WORD
AND YOU LEFT HER. YOU STUPID PERSON. YOU DON'T USE THE "F" WORD ON A PERSON AND THEN TELL HER SHE'S GOING TO FIND SOMEONE BETTER.
NO ONE'S EVER GOING TO BELIEVE YOU ANYMORE. YOU LIED TO A WOMAN ONCE,
AND YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN. STUPID STUPID MEN. UGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH
and people think the word "fuck"'s bad.
RETARDS

2008-08-03T20:34:00.002+08:00

only silly girls attempt suicide. smart girls actually die.
you awful person. how could you be so dense? you know she loves you, she knows it too. but no one said you had to love her back. you went and got yourself someone else, and that hurt her, so she tried to get rid of that pain. but you didn't get it did you. you had to try to "make things better", you had to try to leave. can't you understand, that's her only connection she has left with you. and taking that away from her, that would be brutal. so what if she has to see you with someone else, so what if you don't love her anymore. at least she gets to be near you, she gets to see you happy. can't you let her love you? if she wants to suffer, let her. let her do anything she wants. and if she dies in the process, so be it. it was her choice. it was her decision. it's just bad luck that you didn't love her back.is it that difficult to treat her like everyone else.
people in love get special treatment
people in love get everything they want

2008-07-28T19:25:00.002+08:00

things i want to do after the prelims:
(in no particular order of importance)

sleep
get a new pair of shoes
row 20k
run
watch batman
walk around in the middle of the night with jay chou/the cast of hairspray
go to macritchie more than twice a week
3x10
study for the alevels

2008-07-28T12:56:00.002+08:00

"I MISS YOU MAN, HURRY KILL THE ALIENS"
"THEY STOLE MY BRAIN! THE IRRITATING ASSHOLES"
"asshole is a bad word. i don't think we can be friends anymore"
"MADONNA!"

princess of the world [:

2008-07-28T12:45:00.001+08:00

did you know?
cross dressing (a female wearing males clothes) is condemned by the bible!
I DIDN'T!
"The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on a woman's garment: for all that do so are abomination unto the LORD thy God.” - Deuteronomy 22:5

2008-07-25T22:35:00.004+08:00

i'm waiting for trash to wake up/pick up her phone.and i want to blog about my day/life
well, i went to school today! i think i like odd numbers! i go to school on odd numbered days! [: it's sad, and weird but i realised this morning while standing there singing that anthem that i spend more time at macritchie/training than i do in school/at home.i go to school thrice a week!sometimes even FOUR times!i used to go to macritchie 6 days a week, sometimes more than once a day! damn i'm uncool. anyway, getting back to my day. i went to school today! i do come to school on a regular basis okay! 1 3 5 is very regular!i refused to go for GP because i can't seem to come up with a decent essay and i refuse to hand in a lousy one because my lovely gp teacher can be quite anal at times. coupled with the fact that she doesn't see me very often, she may decide to come and talk to me or something, and that would be very unpleasant. so, i missed gp. i didn't really want to go for the econs lecture because the lecturer's a boring/patronizing asshole. and then there was a humongous break. before bio lecture, which i accidently missed because i was hard at work in the library with wang and her male counterpart. yes, me. i am a lean mean studying machine! a lean mean studying machine who's given up on chemistry and math. i'm still trying hard for bio and econs though!so that was my day. my lovely day. in school, in the library, with my sexy bio notes, my wang and her male counterpart. oh gosh, i think my life sucks. and i haven't even gotten to the part about math tuition, where the aliens came and took my brain. i don't think they've returned it to me yet. they really should. i mean prelims is in TWO FREAKING WEEKS. and i just saw the time table like 12 hours ago. "are you smarter than a 5th grader's" quite funny! i don't think the "honesty" show's going to be nice though. it's too creepy watching people revealing such stuff about themselves on television. secrets are weird :/

YOU CAN'T STOP THE BEAT
trash has nice songs [:

2008-07-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

it was so much better. it was normal
AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENED ):<
and now you're being a jerk, and i'm being stupid again.
AGAIN UGHHHH.
so much for not repeating mistakes.
#@!#@%@$$#@!#@$#@$!@#$

2008-07-25T21:23:00.003+08:00

i like watching ugly betty. i like watching ugly betty so much i'm watching it right now

2008-07-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

shit happens

2008-07-21T21:33:00.002+08:00

my sister cannot stop singing in the shower. i feel like kicking my ears so i go deaf.haha. she's not half bad. my dog cannot decide if sharon's screaming for help or singing. it's quite funny. i cannot seem to make myself study. and i like watching friends and "my wife and kids" they're funny [: something's happening! something's happening and i don't know what to do anymore! this is superbly uncool! ):< i have to go to school to hand in my PQ and for CAPERS tomorrow.what a complete waste of my life :/ but i promised i'd try ):

the things you say, they make me smile
it's so sad though, 'm just another person you know. it's not special anymore
plus i think she's prettier/cooler/smarter/nicer too ):
it's sad, but i can't seem to match up, to anyone. no matter what i do. how pathetic :/
you are my sunshineee
you give me sunburn [:

2008-07-20T23:31:00.001+08:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY

HARD CORE MUGGING!

2008-07-18T18:00:00.003+08:00

i did many many freakishly long things today!i studied the organisation and control of the prokaryotic and eukaryotic genome.i cut my nails.i wrote a competition email to a fellow k2-er which included a detailed warm up plan, pack list and race plan!and i took 53 to bishan!

Joey says:
i very long never suck lollipop already
Joey says:
can i suck yours?
the whole world walks too fast says:
WHAALAOOOOOOO
Joey says:
i promise i'll be gentle

MY BODY'S ACHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! ):<

2008-07-16T23:23:00.001+08:00

THE WHOLE WORLD SMILES SO DAMN PRETTILY! ):
THEY ALL LOOK SO GLAMOUROUS WHEN THEY SMILE
ME, I JUST LOOK IDIOTIC!HAHA

2008-07-12T03:57:00.002+08:00

the whole world walks too fast says:i'll go kick the singapore eduation system's balls
Crystal says:damnit. speaking of balls
Crystal says:i should have kicked *a*s*n*!
Crystal says:i think thats his name at least
Crystal says:I SAW HIM IN THE BUS THE OTHER DAY LIKE I TOLD YOU. and i was staring at his HUGE bottle.
Crystal says:FUGLY HUGE bottle

things we talk about at threefiftyeight AM [:

2008-07-12T03:53:00.000+08:00

Crystal says:
look
Crystal says:
http://thesuperficial.com/2008/07/kelly_ripa_is_hot_i_dont_say_t.php
Crystal says:
you'll die
Crystal says:
i'll be first
Crystal says:
it's a bunch of women running in heels!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the whole world walks too fast says:
slut.

2008-07-10T22:08:00.003+08:00

EH YOU, YAH YOU
stop confusing me! i don't know who the hell you're talking about anymore!
you made me feel like a royal bitch for being so mean/cold/whatever
and i freaking tried to be nicer and make things go back to what they were before
ONLY TO REALISE YOU WEREN'T TALKING ABOUT ME?!
WHAT THE FREAKING HELL?
what am i huh. another sob story you can use? SO GIRLS'LL COME RUNNING OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME
that's freaking uncool
another classic case of misleading myself to believe that the whole fucking
world revolves around me
IF I WERE UNCOOLER I'D CALL YOU A FUCKING LIAR!
but i'm cool.
so i won't [:
cheebyeee.you think i don't miss you? FUCKING RUBBISH LAH
and i've fucking tried lah. but you think it's too weird after so fucking long
WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?! TURN BACK TIME?
go lah. do your "pretty girl' stint again.
I'LL MOST PROBABLY STILL BE HERE.
AS USUAL.
oh my freaking goodness la. i'm a fucking loser :/

2008-07-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

i will do it, because i can

2008-07-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

"haha. he's on tv! climbing a mountain!showing for three saturdays somemore!"
"WHAT CHANNEL?"
"haha.channel 5. lord of the rings.haha"
"HE IS NOT A HOBBIT!"
kitkat.kitkat chunky.mcflurry.chinchow.HEHHH

2008-07-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

"yeah, the whole train was watching them and they were like in their own little world"
"i bet you're jealous"
"naw.i have you"
"are you as bored as i am?i'm replying your stupid messages"
"quite. wanna make out?"
"ha. you can't"
"damn"
this is me and my trash talking about a couple of old lesbians in the train.
you and me.we'll make the world jealous [:

2008-07-03T22:45:00.004+08:00

okay, my day:
"can i be your helicase, i wanna unzip your genes"
-bernice

"AHHHH. she came from behind me! i didn't even see her coming!"
"suzy did you kiss her?!"
"almost"

"i found pissy poetry..it's a lesbian"
-trash

"okay all you people waiting for your men! OKAY BLADDER YOU WAIT!"
-gabby

and i like taking the bus home from bukit timah. it's nice and quiet
and i enjoy looking through my messages, some of them make me happy!
and i hate green but i like green boats
i wished i looked cool enough for people to want to know my name!
timothy leow touches a sec 4 girl on a regular basis
and yesterday i progressed from six inchers to footlongs!

2008-07-01T11:38:00.002+08:00

i like being in school but i do not like going for lessons
i like going for lectures, but only if i understand what's going on beforehand
i like taking tests, but i don't like failing
i like studying, but i don't like exams
i like doing work for the sake of doing work, but i don't like doing homework
i like typing because it's faster than writing and i do not have to erase
oh my my my, how horribly picky S:
i shall stop cursing, i shall try to stop cursing [:
i'm really bored in school now and i do not know what to do!
HAHAHAHA. I AM A HAPPY CAMPER!THE HAPPIEST CAMPER AROUND!

2008-06-30T23:57:00.002+08:00

STOP PINNING EVERY DAMN THING ON ME
so what if you're sad now, it's not always about you
didn't it ever occur to you, i got tired of being at your beck and call

2008-06-26T21:46:00.001+08:00

i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls i like pretty girls
damn i still like cute boys

2008-06-25T13:03:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin deep. That's deep enough. What do they want, an adorable pancreas? -- Jean Kerr
HAHAHA

2008-06-23T12:50:00.003+08:00

i really should be studying now, well technically i should be in school now but whatever lah
i just wanted to tell the entire world that
i like everlasting gobstoppers and chocolate with raisins but without nuts

2008-06-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

I AM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ON THE PLANET TODAY.
AND I'M TOO HAPPY TO CARE HOW GAY I SOUND
i ran around the dining table screaming
i jumped around macritchie screaming
i smiled myself ALL THE WAY HOME
THAT'S HOW HAPPY I AM! DAMNNNNNN BLOODY HAPPY!
plus i am now the proud owner of the sexiest pair of purple boxers ever [:
i love the people around me
and i miss my tipsy friend already
my trash is the sex of all sexes
and i freaking love the girls
not to mention the skinniest bitch on earth
and the princess of the world.
tim leow is still something out of the ordinary. AND MMM IS THE HOTTEST PERSON ALIVE

2008-06-19T01:08:00.002+08:00

i cannot stop smiling! it's unnatural and i look like an idiot and my cheeks ache
BUT I DON'T FREAKING CARE MAN
I'M A HAPPY PERSON NOW.SO HAH
happy person, happy people, happy messages, happy call, happy DAY [:

2008-06-18T01:08:00.006+08:00

i have a 1.75 female cousin whose legs are probably longer than my entire body
i think boys are, interesting ESPECIALLY GUITAR-PLAYING-SONG-SINGING ONES.
i also think i may marry a guitar one day! they're sexy!
i feel like a fat cow. a fat and weak cow. i felt so fat-cowish today, i ate leaves.
i know lah cows eat grass lah.but leaves are pretty damn close to grass okay.
lousy skinny humans who live on grass. fart methane and die.
WASSUP WITH GUYS AND HIDDEN MESSAGES LAH
VERY GAY LEH. DON'T LIKE THAT CAN OR NOT/ANOT

2008-06-18T01:08:00.005+08:00

i have a 1.75 female cousin whose legs are probably longer than my entire body
i think boys are, interesting ESPECIALLY GUITAR-PLAYING-SONG-SINGING ONES.
i also think i may marry a guitar one day! they're sexy!
i feel like a fat cow. a fat and weak cow. i felt so fat-cowish today, i ate leaves.
i know lah cows eat grass lah.but leaves are pretty damn close to grass okay.
lousy skinny humans who live on grass. fart methane and die.
WASSUP WITH GUYS AND HIDDEN MESSAGES LAH
VERY GAY LEH. DON'T LIKE THAT CAN OR NOT/ANOT

2008-06-18T01:08:00.004+08:00

I'M A HAPPY CAMPER. AHHHLALALALALALAAAAAAA

siao

2008-06-18T01:08:00.002+08:00

i think i like night walks. i like to walk around at night with jay chou when there's no one else on the road. it made me quite happy tonight!i also think that i like walking alone with jay chou even though i cannot understand a single word, and i have no idea what he's going on and on about. the songs are so soothing i felt like i was floating. i really do like night walks [:

2008-06-17T01:41:00.001+08:00

0141
Crystal says:
rabbits will hop at jumping shadows!
a little bit of hell says:
that's nice
a little bit of hell says:
haha
a little bit of hell says:
cats will open their legs for food and cameras

i like talking to trash.the things we talk about are always so very deep [:

2008-06-17T01:14:00.003+08:00

today was an eventful day!and i didn't train/mug the entire day!how cool is that! today, i learnt the art of the WUSHU FINGER (the flexing pinky).i almost made out with an infant (a rather large infant, with long hair and big eyes).and met the sluttiest most shameless feline porn star on earth and created cat porn. i also buttered many many sausages!all you sick sick people [:
HAHAHA
i'm quite happy [:

2008-06-15T00:36:00.003+08:00

it's sad how people don't see themselves the way we see them. she's so awesome and so oblivious to that fact. she's so blind to how good she is it amazes me. it really never occured to me that while i would give anything to be in her shoes, she cannot wait to get out of them.
and i thought i had self esteem issues. you silly girl.
send me an IM i'll be your friend

2008-06-13T23:30:00.001+08:00

i know that you'll be mine when i say this to you
oh baby,
ooh ee ooh ah ah ting tang walla walla bing bang
ooh ee ooh ah ah ting tang walla walla bing bang!

cheyy.where got so easy one

2008-06-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

i am
aching aching aching aching aching ACHING
dammit
that was quite a hassle to type!it took quite abit of effort!
HURTING HURTING HURTING HURTING.
IT'S PISSING ME OFF! ):<

2008-06-13T00:02:00.001+08:00

timothy leow is something out of the ordinary

2008-06-11T17:36:00.001+08:00

japanese men have funky hair

2008-06-10T20:16:00.002+08:00

the world's in such a hurry. everybody's forced to multi-task whether we like it or not.
we're expected to study hard, train hard, win, have fun, be kids, hand in homework, please everybody and be good children all at the same time.they're expected to work, have fun, exercise, please other people and be good parents all at the same time.i hate juggling stuff. it's irritating, and tiring.
"rest well", "train hard!", "study hard!", "have fun!", "listen to me!","answer me!","take care of yourself!"
it's hard enough doing one thing at a time okay! stupid multi-taskers.
can't they all freaking slow down. or at least choose one thing, and just stick with it. you can't do everything and be fucking good at everything. that's disgusting.stop freaking rushing! and life's such that you cannot have the bloody cake and eat it. so something's always compromised!WHAT'S THE FREAKING POINT.
(speaking of cake, munyee showed me a really small slice. it was amazing. it was smaller than her finger. and that's saying alot. seriously)
trash says she can do anything. i will be able to do anything too. and then i'll be cool and invincible too. okay, i will be cool and invincible tomorrow.that's a resolution.i am very resolute.if that word even exists. now i'm going to have fun and rest at the same time (see i'm starting to work on that resolution already even though it's due tomorrow.i'm that resolute)

"zannneee! i lost my flower!"
"haha. it got so bored waiting for you it left."
"):"

2008-06-10T00:01:00.004+08:00

once, i swore never to blog about canoeing here. because that's just too uncool
BUT NAHBEI I CANNOT TAKE IT
WHY THE HELL THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD SO FAST
MY BEST GOT BLOODY HELL TRASHED LIKE YESTERDAY'S TOILETPAPER
THERE MUST BE SOMETHING THEY'RE DOING.
SOMETHING THEY'RE CONSUMING. DAMMIT
I WANTED TO BE FEARED! I STILL WANT TO BE FEARED!
i want people to look at the line up and go "ohhh.this girl,'m so screwed"
and not "oh this girl. aiyaaa. no kick la"
DAMMIIIITTTTT ):
this is damn uncool lah. but i'm kind of past caring.
AND I SWEAR I DID NOT GET LAST LAH WHALAOEH
second last and last very different k! AHHHHHH

i want to whoop all your fit and skinny little butts.
all those butts who've paddled for more than 2 years.
UGH ):<
PADDLE SO MUCH STILL SO CUTE.
dammit

2008-06-05T17:48:00.003+08:00

wang suggests that i should just go and live in malaysia. i agree! they have my favourite men, and my favourite bread.

i kissed a girl and i liked it
the taste of her cherry chapstick
i kissed a girl just to try it
i hope my boyfriend doesn't mind it

2008-06-04T00:10:00.002+08:00

on a lighter note, i broke wang's little sister's rubiks cube today.i don't know how it happened!one minute i was happily solving the stupid thing, and the next it was in freaking pieces!and wang has nice dumplings and linger is funny! [:

s: "eh lingling, why you don't eat chilli one!"
linger: "i don't like the burning feeling"
s: "huh? what burning feeling?"
linger: "you know, the feeling after you eat the chilli!"
s: "oh, i think i don't feel it anymore lah, used to it already"
linger: "but when you're a kid you eat chilli then you feel the burning feeling what right?"
s: "yah lah, last time la"
linger : "THEN WHY YOU STILL CONTINUE?!"

cute la [:

2008-06-03T23:56:00.003+08:00

I DO NOT WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE
THIS IS NOT A WHINY COMPLAINT.
I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE
I HATE IT, I DETEST IT, I DESPISE IT
and i really do make quite a sucky student
i have this gigantanormous ego that i boost by studying the stuff i already know
and refusing to touch the stuff i know balls about
AND THEN I END UP KNOWING NOTHING AT ALL
because the "stuff that i already know" is really A VERY SMALL PORTION OF EVERY FREAKING THING I HAVE TO KNOW
but i really do have to study i can't do anything else
and i really do hate being rational.
being irrational and whiny and horribly stupid is FREAKING FUN
not that 've pulled it off of course. you've to be pretty to pull off something like that
BUT IT LOOKS DAMN FUN!
today, i realised that it really is quite fun sitting there and stoning alone, doing nothing at all [:
and I can't forget your style or your cynicism
somehow it was like you were the first to listen

2008-06-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

over many many MANY years of dreaming, i've come to realise that MY DREAMS FOLLOW A BLOODY PATTERN, and it's DAMN BLOODY IRRITATING! when i'm happy, i dream of flying, when i'm unhappy, i dream of people dying. when i'm angsty and pissy, i dream of killing people.
AND NOW I'M DREAMING OF KILLING PEOPLE AGAIN ):
and it's not killing people i actually hate, the stupid dreams are about either killing random people i don't know, or killing people i kind of enojy being around LIKE MY WHOLE FREAKING FAMILY and my friends and my teachers. and sometimes, i dream of suicide bombing. except i've never really committed suicide by blowing myself up before, so it's kind of a blank after i detonate the bomb. and i must say, the killings can sometimes be very very painful.spectacular (sometimes beautiful), but still painful.
MAYBE I'M SOME KIND OF SERIAL KILLER FREAK
naw, i'm too much of a pussy
i'm just pissy.

HAHAHA I'M A PISSY PUSSY [:

2008-05-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! malu! stupid lousy blogger!
anyway! i realised i'm a horrible kid. i like spending money i do not have.
HOWWW!
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

2008-05-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

i have this horrible habit of of saying/doing things at all the wrong times
UGH.fuckinghell

2008-05-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

i am a hardcore mugger. i mug so hard i could beat all of you in a mugging competition!i can mug with my eyes closed and my hands tied behind my back! (okay maybe just my left one)
on a lighter and not as scary note, today sucked balls.and i'm no longer looking forward to the damn camp because trash told me my group sucks.which means it probably has alot of people i feel like kicking, and very few people i can have fun with. i could always kill all of them and then join another group, but then i'd have to go to jail and that wouldn't be worth it.even the wild party we may have cannot cheer me up! (i say "may have" because there are older people who may say NO).AND THE WEATHER IS STILL BLOODY HOT. and i feel like a flabby whale. and today, i got so pissed i punched a car and now my hand hurts. life could be alot better.
now i feel like an angsty whale. what's up with all these emotions mann.they're so boring and pissifying. oh look, more emotions. ALL THAT ANGSTTTTTT

gosh

2008-05-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

THE WEATHER IS STILL VERY HOTTT ):
my head hurts! i cannot figure out if it's because the sun's so freaking hot or brain freeeezzeeee
but there's no sun now. but it's still really hot. i think i have a sunburn, in my head. all those horrible free radicles floating around.ugh
i really need to do my gp essay on governments and individual rights. but i don't really care about governments and inidividual rights now. because my head hurts. and all i care about is my head. and trash's chinese ):
my body hurts tooooooo!my back, my forearms, my thighs,even my freaking BACKSIDE ):
I GIVE UP LAH SHOOT ME LAHHHHHH
then you'll go to jail/get hanged,hung,whatever
life sucks right, so hot, and so bloody tiring. all the freaks responsible for this intense heat, I CURSE YOU TO HELLLLL! ):<

2008-05-21T23:38:00.003+08:00

THE WEATHER IS VERY VERY HOT
AND I FEEL LIKE KICKING EVERYTHING THAT PRODUCES HEAT/SOUND
NEH NEH!

2008-05-21T22:55:00.003+08:00

i was just thinking about it, and i realised that, i want to be a slut. seriously. what's up with all those virtuous virginal women anyway.they're all going to have sex anyway, and sluts seem to have more fun than these virtuous virginal women- being the sex kittens they are. you see, most sluts have everything, pretty faces, hot legs, nice breasts and all that nonsense. and they're pretty damn smart too the conniving little creatures. they're like these foxy ladies that everyone wants but are too "saintly" to admit it. deep down all men are animals. guys go "ooooh look hot legs hot legs hot girl hot girl!" and not "oooooooh look at that girl, she's so intellectual and virtuous". and trust me k. life isn't fair. these sluts, they don't get ugly. the smart people go "oh outer beauty's nothing, it'll fade with time,what'll you look at then?", these girls, they don't get wrinkles like normal people. if anything, they get sexier every year. their breasts don't get saggy and they don't get thunder thighs and flabby butts. they're perfect people. they're perfect unreachables. oh well. there's always plastic surgery. all those males who oppose plastic surgery, fuck off and dieeee!you want pretty girls, and when girls who're fugly seek treatment for their fugliness you condemn them for being fake. fuck you! you were the ones who started being superficial first! oh gosh. being ugly makes me mean. oh well. i had dinner with my man and girlfriend today. ultimate threesome right (the man, the girl and the seahorse). i also say [:
life is good [:

it's all about you
it's all about you baby

2008-05-19T02:37:00.001+08:00

i want a gay friend

2008-05-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

whapiang, i was blogstalking again, and i realised
PEOPLE HAVE VERY INTERESTING LIVES (either that or they have the ability to make their lives sound very interesting!) i mean mugging at ngeeann, having lunch at vivo, actually having a social life.amazing i tell you, freaking amazing!they can even make mugging sound so fun!i mug all the time, but it's pretty boring since i study with pro-muggers and they cannot be bothered to entertain me when i get bored :/ and it's amazing how people can take so many photos in the same place at one time! doing nothing at all! seriously man, if i had a photo for everytime i mugged, the whole freaking room would be freaking filled with photos! i sound like a freaking man.so, i shall blog about the most interesting thing that happened to me today.yes.

today, i went back to school after water to do gym with my hotass trash and i watched the dancers DANCE! they have pretty fingers, and legs, and hands, and pretty much pretty everything lah.they were so amazing!they contorted their body into positions i've seen before but deemed impossible to mimick.and they did this like really quickly in time with the music!it was like watching choreographed sex (not that i have, but aiyah! it just looked good lah!) it's no wonder guys like dancers, they're all either angels or sex goddesses.life is good [:

oh, and i wanted to say.mugging alone at sgcb stinks (i would like to say "sucks" but i recently found out that cussing is a gigantic turnoff. SO I WILL CHANGE!). i was there sitting like an idiot for damn long thinking "whaaa that lousy bitch so freaking late, 2 hours already!" then i realised that the lousy bitch i was thinking about was freezing her tiny little ass off in Australia.'ve grown so accustomed to just sitting there doing nothing and waiting for her that i did it even though she's freaking 7 hours away! it was weird staying there without her, so i left! and went home! after 2 hours of stoning and waiting for someone who was in Australia! i just read that paragraph again, and realised how big a loser i am. oh well. you can't be cool all the time.

i have training again tomorrow.then i'm going to pay a man $300 for his services. and then i'm going home to a gp essay and 18 gp resource articles [:

oh yes!i saw a cute girl today!she's damn cute lah

me:" eh eh (cute girl's name X 2)!whaaa life is gooood"
trash:"whalao, it's so freaking easy to make your day.i also want!"
me:"go and find a cute girl lah!"

i love my life, it's filled with angels, sex goddesses and cute girls (not to mention my hotass trash & the ultimate gay princess) plus i hyperventilate when i see men with long hair+burnt guys [:

2008-05-10T13:24:00.004+08:00

suicidal tendancies are due to the hypermethylation of some gene at the back of your brain!
ie. suicidal tendancies are in the freaking genes man. so all you suicidal people out there,

mom: "WHY ARE YOU CUTTING YOURSELF AND TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF. TELL ME WHY WHY WHY WHYYYYY!"
kid: "but mummy it's your fault!"
mom: "HUH WHY?!"
kid: "IT'S IN MY FREAKING GENES!!!I CAN'T HELP IT"
actually, it doesn't really work that way lah, there has to be some kind of trauma (child abuse/neglect) for something like that to happen.but WHO'S LOOKING AT THE DETAILS MAN
HAHAHA
eh it's funny okay
AND AND ANNNNNDD

women, can actually have kids without sperm. and the kids would all be freaking female! cool righttt!i also say [: the ultimate lesbian dream. seems that they can do something to the X chromosome and manipulate it such that a female kid is produced. wooooots! this effectively means that..
WE'LL HAVE A WORLD FULL OF FEMALES!
and people wonder why i love science

2008-05-08T23:43:00.002+08:00

suzanne seah is falling in love [:
with the idea of being in love :S
my hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me
so won't you kill me, so i die happy
my heart is yours to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewellery
whichever you prefer

2008-05-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

i feel like dyingggggg
i hate keynes ):
he's a horribly complicated man who's making a mess of everything! ):

2008-05-04T20:25:00.000+08:00

"you're a random variable, unique, independent and irreplaceable"
"bitch you know i know nothing about complex numbers right, purposely one"
"whalao!fine la you're not unique, dependent and very replaceable"
"assssshoollleeee"

(:

2008-05-02T23:16:00.001+08:00

i have no life
"What I don't see is why we have to view everyone as a potential fuck.
"If we wouldn't fuck them, then they obviously couldn't be a quality human being."
Do you see how ridiculous you are sounding?"
this is a guy by the way
i read such garbage to inflate my gigantic ego [:

2008-04-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

if i were to rule the world, life would be incredibly fair.
the amount of effort and labour contributed would be directly proportional to the results achieved.
nobody would get anything they do not deserve.
LUCK WOULD BE FUCKING ILLEGAL
and all those pretty little girls would have to work hard JUST LIKE EVERYFUCKINGONE ELSE.

2008-04-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

there is no combination of words
i could put on the back of a post card
no song that i could sing
but i can try for your heart
our dreams, and they are made up of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia tone loving

2008-04-16T23:48:00.001+08:00

put a gun against his head
pulled my trigger and now he's dead

i would like to learn how to kill

2008-04-13T22:27:00.003+08:00

the only way to love without feeling any pain is to
love unconditionally without any expectations whatsoever
not even expectations of reciprocation

2008-04-13T13:55:00.001+08:00

it's more than words
it's more than what you say
it's the things you do

ah whatever.

2008-04-08T22:15:00.008+08:00

cause i would give the whole world for you
anything you'd ask of me i'd do

2008-04-08T22:15:00.002+08:00

"hey, your girlfriend gave you time, and i got space for a christmas present.maybe we should get together and make a continuum!"
HAHAHA
eh it's funny okay!

2008-04-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

he loves her definitely maybe

2008-04-01T23:19:00.001+08:00

apathy can be cultivated
or at least faked

2008-03-31T23:22:00.003+08:00

SOMETIMES IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU. IT'S ALL ABOUT FREAKING ME. I AM SELFISH AND SELF CENTERED AND I SINCERLY DO NOT BELIEVE IT WOULD COMPLICATE YOUR LIFE THAT MUCH TO SEND ONE PATHETIC LITTLE MESSAGE TO INFORM SOMEONE OF MY PRESENCE. CONSIDERING I WOULD BLOODY BEND OVER BACKWARDS TO COMPLY TO YOUR WISHES. I SINCERELY DON'T THINK THAT IT'S TOO MUCH TO ASK OF YOU. do you ever consider anything you say or do?or is that ability reserved only for special people (ie people who are pretty, skinny and all about perfection)
CAN'T YOU EVEN BE A FRIEND. you lousy piece of selective shit
don't fucking say i'm playing you down because you know everysingle thing i'm saying now is true. and you would fucking do it if i were rachel, or at least be nice about it. so fuck off and die elson choi. you're a lousy person

2008-03-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

tell me
what you want me to become
and i'll do it

2008-03-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

this is me standing in the arch of the door
hating the look that's on your face
that says there's another fool like me
there's one born every minute
what you do on your own time's just fine
my imagination's much worse
i just never want to know
what meant the world imploded
inflated then demoted all my oxygen
to product gas and suffocated my last chance
she's more beautiful than i'll ever be

2008-03-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

i would like to be very confident, and say
i don't give a shit about the results, because i did my best and that's all that matters.
but life doesn't always work that way doesn't it
and it kind of sucks to know that your best's never gonna be good enough, no matter how hard you work, no matter how hard you try. no one gives a shit about the process. it's the results that people look at. and if yours suck, and you worked really really hard. people are just going to laugh in your face. because they know where you stand, and it's no where near where they are at.

2008-03-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

i need to find new conversational topics!
i do not like embarrassment!
you're just another picture to burn
finally

2008-03-16T22:39:00.001+08:00

I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOL ):

2008-03-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

could you really love someone who was capable of falling in love with someone else?
love should be another fourlettertaboo word.
i don't come cheap but my kisses come free
so what if they're free. it doesn't matter when no one wants them

2008-03-10T18:45:00.002+08:00

everything's gonna be alright [:
you silly person, keeping everything inside. i love you lah [:
even though you're silly and gay [:
even better if the stars are good tonight

2008-03-08T22:23:00.003+08:00

whatever makes you happy
seriously [:
remember me, i used to be
the best time buddy you couldn't wait to see
but getting old, it takes its toll
and hearts getting broken lead to people getting cold

2008-03-07T23:46:00.003+08:00

"you were talking and talking and i couldn't get you to shut up, i loved you then"
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! [:
all that beautiful fictional love [:
I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there

2008-03-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

"i don't want to be that invisible man, i cannot be just a shoulder. i want to be something else. i want to be someone's gerry. i'm sorry, it's not your fault, it's just me. i didn't mean to feel anything for you, but somehow something changed and i think i fell in love with you."
LOVE SHOWS ARE AS BAD AS ROMANCE NOVELS.
YOU TELL ME WHERE GOT LOVE LIKE THAT ONE. bullshittttt!

2008-03-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

i was thinking really hard of how to phrase this in a nice way, how to make it sound less "you're a fucking jerk" and more "oh it's okay, it's perfectly fine". and then i realised, there's no fucking point in doing that. there's no point in condoning everything when i feel like slapping some sense into you. but you know what, fuck it. i don't see why i should care, and why i should kill myself trying to make you understand, when you don't even care. so you know what, i shall not give a flying fuck about anything too! it's a freaking waste of energy. it's fucking tiring la. giving and fucking giving. so fucking one-sided.screw you, i'm done
LET YOUR GODLIKE GIRLFRIEND DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU
fucking dickhead

2008-03-06T23:26:00.001+08:00

i will never be sad again
there's no more sadness left!
If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again

2008-03-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

humans were made to adapt so when someone disappears, you deal with it.
it was confusing at first, but selfishness tends to win. i guess you may not have to imagine it after all
i'm tired of missing you
enough's enough

2008-03-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

actually, i kind of miss plankton. it's not like she's very big or anything(in fact she's pretty damn minute), but it just feels weird with her missing. i even miss her random messages. the ones that she sends when someone's being a fucker. sometimes i even miss her calling me a man. i miss her constant whining and her inability to decide. ah, but it's so far from the end of the year. i wonder how she makes her way around without getting trampled on. i know she's getting hit. okay lah, hit on. same damn thing. i also wonder how she survives on tuna and bread and toiletbowl water. gosh [:

2008-03-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

we forget all too easily
it's not that hard to take the people who loved and cared forgranted, and it's not that hard to be selfish and assume that they'll be there forever, waiting, for nothing .so you must be forgiven, for not knowing, and not caring enough to find out
you don't know me
you don't even care

2008-03-03T23:33:00.001+08:00

I DO NOT BELIEVE IN LOVE

i stopped mugging for five minutes to tell the world this. SO IT'S PRETTY DAMN SERIOUS OKAY

2008-03-01T01:34:00.002+08:00

talk is cheap
but i'm not worth much am i
you don't even know where i start

2008-02-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

why do people enjoy learning things the hard way? more specifically why do people enjoy learning the value of certain things by losing them? the complexities of man
oh i flatter myself. what value. your life would be exactly the same
words won't get you far
when they don't mean shit

2008-02-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

but i can't spell it out for you
no its never gonna be that simple
i can't spell it out for you
if you just realize, what i just realized
then we’d be perfect for each other
and we’d never find another
just realize what i just realized
and we’d never have to wonder
if we missed out on each other
now take time to realize
i'm on your side
didnt i tell you

2008-02-24T23:49:00.001+08:00

oh gosh.i really am quite a bitch to please
and yet, you manage so beautifully [:
this night's almost over

2008-02-24T00:57:00.003+08:00

you know what people say about true love? the part where they claim that true love transcends physical flaws and all that nonsense? yes, well it's fucking bullshit lah. it's simply not possible for people to overlook the obscenely obvious physical defects of people around them to get close to them, get to know them, and then "fall in love with them". i really want to go on and on about how beauty is not only skin deep. and how beautiful people are the people with beautiful personalities,whereas for the ugly ones, their ugliness seeps through the pores of their skin, making them as ugly and bitter on the inside as they are on the outside, but it's too damn late for all that angst.
BUT, i am going to defend the ugly ones. it's not their fault that they were born ugly. it's not their fault that the constant reminder of their disgusting appearances moulded them into the self concious cynics that they are. it's not their fault that the constant rejection by everyone drove them to do things they thought would get them some attention but served only to amplify the degree of their loser-ish-ness. the world's a very unforgiving place you see. and ugliness is punishable, not by law but by freaking society. okay. anyway. after all that nonsense, what i really wanted to say was that. being ugly sucks. especially when you're female. and that, people will never never never get over how ugly you are to notice you. and even if they do, there's nothing much on the inside either. ugly out ugly in. life sucks that way
i hate how easily you laugh when you're with beautiful girls. i hate how different you are when the females are tall, lean, skinny,beautiful. how you're such a perfect person when you're with them. i hate it so much i like to believe i hate you. i know i'm not supposed to be feeling such nonsense emotions, but i fucking hate taking the boot when she's around. i fucking hate that what i work so hard to achieve, she accomplishes with a girlish giggle and smile. and i know it's wrong too, but i hate her for that. i started too far behind to ever catch up.too fucking far

2008-02-19T22:42:00.002+08:00

whining doesn't solve anything. sure it makes you look real cute, but it does absolutely nothing to help
lets just say you can't always have everything you want. especially if you don't deserve it
so cry all you want. but suck it up princess. the world doesn't always revolve around you.
deal with the mess you made ,on your own.

2008-02-14T22:36:00.001+08:00

valentines day was, eventful
[:

2008-02-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

today i big,
today i took someone's first time.HEHH
and yesss, i'll eat [:
my one and only valentines' day present [:

2008-02-13T22:01:00.001+08:00

sour grapes, sour apples, sour pears, sour oranges
sour roses
sour freaking everything la

2008-02-13T19:31:00.002+08:00

JAY CHOU IS DAMN BLOOODDDDYYYY HANDSOME LAH

2008-02-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

aiyoh
why the fuck, do people say "'m sorry" when they don't mean it? what's the point of apologizing, if there're no actions to back up those two fucking useless words?

2008-02-07T10:13:00.000+08:00

AHHHH LALALALALA!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

may everyone have a lovely time prancing around in pretty red dresses

muahahahaha [:

2008-02-02T01:13:00.000+08:00

love is incomprehensible and very very painful
you see i don't understand it.'ve worked so hard, done everything i could for you. every single thing. and nothing worked. i still watch you walk away.every single time. and it's not hurting any less. i realised. in love, hard work means absolutely nothing. pretty faces and skinny defined bodies mean so much more.how is it that i would give anything to make you happy, and you leave a small portion of your life to make me miserable and i don't exist in the others.so i'm irrelevant because i'm not pretty? or because i'm too fucking available? too fucking nice. or just plain monstrous. i see you. everywhere, with pretty little things with skinny bodies and perfect faces with perfect hair. perfect voices perfect femininity. and i don't know what to do. so i look away. and smile.i tried to compensate for being so hideous. i really tried. very hard. i tried so hard it hurts to think about it. but nothing worked. nothing. and everything still hurts.i don't know what to do anymore. and i cannot let anyone know. it's so painful. so freaking painful.

2008-01-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

what the hell
i was important tonight! [:
worn me down like a road
i did everything you told
worn me down to my knees
i did everything to please
but you can't stop thinking about her
she's so pretty
she's so damn bright
but I'm so tired of thinking about her again tonight

2008-01-19T19:39:00.000+08:00

if people survived on love and fresh air
i'd die
i've watched you so long
screamed your name
i don't know what else i can say

2008-01-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

i am stupid
and ugly, in all the ways possible
suddenly i see
why the hell it means so much to me

2007-12-30T21:05:00.001+08:00

at times disappointment makes it a little bit difficult to be very happy, and at others unbearably painful to smile
but i manage anyway [:
give until there's nothing left
you know, it sucks to need to be appreciated only to realise that you're having everything you've given thrown back in your face. and it's still hard to believe that you lied to my face. important? significant? fucking bullshit? i cannot believe i was so incredibly stupid that i assumed you gave a shit.hah.i think the pain's making it hard to breathe